Now I know it's really been a long time since I last posted a message here on my blog. Sometimes, I just don't know what to write on it anymore when I log on. Sometimes, I just don't feel like sharing whatever it is I'm feeling. More often than not, I just don't have the time.
I don't feel good right now. Just like what I normally say, when it rains, it pours. I went to the hospital this morning for some lab tests. For some unknown reason, I forgot to check if I need to go fasting before they take some blood for testing. When I was already there, I realized my mistake. I took my lunch after that then while I was eating at McDo, I thought of what else I could do while I'm there. So I thought of going instead to an opthalmologist because I've been having some problems with my right eye for almost a year now. I waited until 1:00PM because I still have to secure a consultation slip then when the coordinator finally went back from her lunch, she checked and informed me that there currently is no accredited opthalmologist in the hospital for my HMO. I waited for over an hour for her to just tell me that. Oh well.....
Do you experience those moments when you feel like no one understands what you're going through? Yesterday, I read something about "quarter-life crisis" and I think I'm going through that. I just want to go to a place where no one knows me and I don't have to wear a mask everyday to face the people. My parents - I can't really talk to them about my problems. I've never done that. My boyfriend - I feel like he never really tried to understand me, ever, about anything I tell him. Friends - nah... So who do I go to in times like this? Good thing I still have God.
