Bittersweet Memories

I'm getting left behind now. I have two pending posts, one about the DFA experience in Pasay. The other one about a friend, Bryan. The only problem is I really can't turn on the "writer's mode" in me. I want to go on a dayoff and relax but I still can't. For now, let me just post some poems I made through the years...

How does it feel when you have to let go of someone you've loved from the first time you knew him/her? aaaawwww... to all the brokenhearted people out there, take time to heal, but most of all, don't close your hearts! Be open to love (and probably be hurt) again. Anyway, these things make life more (bitter) sweet. :)

Everytime The Wind Blows You Near

I used to compose poetries of love
to express to you how i feel
the emptiness of not having you,
the bitterness of life without you here.

I also said i'll love you forever
and that's not just from my head
all the moments i said those words
I was telling you exactly how I felt.

I asked you not to let me down
I even pleaded - no, not yet!
for I already put down my only card
and indeed, you're my only bet.

You even heard me saying
"I'll wait for you, my dear
until you're ready to love me
I'll be patient and true with what i feel."

But lately, I can see that things have changed
it seems that I'm already a little too late
while I'm here patiently waiting for you
I realized your heart now belongs to someone new.

I want you to know that I understand
I'm not bitter, remorseful or mad
I just pray for you to find true happiness
And for your broken heart to finally mend.

Now, even if I don't see you anymore
or even without me in the big picture
my heart will always skip a beat
pause, or maybe even do a backflip...

whenever fate brings me here...

...and everytime the wind blows you near.


i am now letting you go

now, as i look at you,
i see the person i will love forever
so i close my eyes to lift a prayer
and thank Him for each moment we're together

and when my tears start to fall
you cup my face with your hands
tracing your fingers with each drop
as you whisper, "i hope time and space would stop"

yet, we know the time has finally arrived
nothing else can be more true than that
we both have known this day will come
even then.., right from the very start

we used to say there will be no holding back
we even said we will understand
but now, as the final hour comes near
everything suddenly becomes unclear

questions keep rushing in my mind
'bout things to which answers are hard to find
yet, with doubts, i am now letting you go
with no answers for things i long to know

i'll keep my heart for you

for now i'll live the days to come
the way i should if i'm with you
and remember to always keep my word
i'll keep my heart pure and true

you may say anything can happen
while you're still there
i may love you know, but very soon
i might not even care

i wish to say that won't happen
no, never will it be true
for i love you now until forever
and i'm keeping my heart for you

i'll prove myself to you, my love
don't let me down, not yet
i've now put down my only card
and you're my only bet

even if it takes forever,
i'll wait for you, my dear
until you're ready to love me
i'll be patient and true with what i feel

i'll wait for the right time to come
that's what's left for me to do
i'll put all my faith and trust in Him
and i'll keep my heart for you

i honestly love you.